The Underestimated Importance of Documenting My Days

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Last year, at the end of each month, I would take the time to write a small, or sometimes rather extensive piece, about the month that had just come to pass. This year I decided not to; concluding that it was quite a lot of work & I wasn’t even sure whether many people were actually interested in reading my monthly ramblings. I’m still not sure about the latter, but I do know that I miss it. I miss that moment of reflection, that quiet time to relive, process & give order to the days of my life.

Of course, I still don’t know if anybody wants to read it. But just the other day, I think I realized that all this documenting is not for anyone but myself. I am the one that apparently needs that neat dot behind the days gone by. I am the one that wants to take a little while to look back, learn & understand what’s going on in life. It gives me a sense of order, a sense of completion. It’s like storing away one month to make space for the new. It helps me to live out my days more consciously, more fully in a way. And prevents the days, the months & the seasons from melting into one another, until they become a faceless, nameless mess, called ‘Yet-another-year-gone-by’.

The thing is; I’ve been feeling a little adrift lately, a little uninspired to document anything about my life, whether it be on this blog, in a letter or even in my head. The days of this summer have had the tendency to fall together, blend into a massive whole, instead of the separate moments I would love to take them for. And I’ve been blaming time itself; for moving too rapidly, for not granting me sufficient time to stop & reflect. I have been blaming a lack of good sleep, the weather, the news, & I suppose, I have even blamed life itself.
But yesterday I decided it was time to stop blaming anything or anyone but myself. It isn’t time, nor sleep, nor life that has gotten in the way of things. It is me. I’m the only one preventing myself from living each & every day of this life with eyes & mind wide open. And I’m also the only one stopping myself from making a beautiful whole of all the little priceless moments that make up for my lovely life.

And so, I have decided to stop sulking & start documenting again. At the end of August I will once again collect my photos, my words, my thoughts & I will share them here, like I used to & in a way that works for me. And, of course, you are ever so welcome to come along on this old/new journey with me….

Wide-eyed wandering, week 16

 

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Yes, I’m still here; still alive & kicking:) It seems like forever ago that I posted something on this poor, imperfect blog of mine. I think this might very well have been the longest radio silence this place ever experienced. Of course, I could go into great detail right now trying to explain what happened, why it took me such a long time to post anything at all. How I went on a holiday, how I came back, how I was working & how I wasn’t. But, I guess, the plain truth of the matter is that time just got away from me somehow. And as more & more time went by, posting anything at all became this huge, daunting task in my mind. So, I postponed & postponed, until eventually I didn’t postpone any more. And now; here I am.

I decided to just pick things up where I left them all those weeks ago. So, in the next couple of days, I’ll try to catch up with my weekly-pictures in rapid speed. And then, when that’s done, we will see what happens next:)

Thanks for coming back to me & hope you’ll enjoy the photos to come!